A day to go down...

[matthew]

oh yeah, and perhaps had I been on some meds (even some lousy anti-depressant), perhaps I might have been in a different mood...stronger.

I was also anxious...always have been/am at clubs and situations with acquaintances...plus I was meeting you for the first time...plus I had already began drinking prior to the show (and it was having a very odd effect after a full 28 days without)...plus I bumped into Wendy and really felt uncomfortable and unsure of what to say...

Yeah, what the fuck was I thinking about smoking? Christ, what an idiot.

It was bad enough I was drinking.

Man, it truly was a self-destruct move on my part (this is why I maybe should have been on meds).

The alcohol I tried desperately to drink after the pot did nothing at all (it always had until then)...I ditched my glass on some storefront window...that was the last thing I remember clearly.

Where's the I'm a fuckhead smiley?  

 

[Mister Chaddy]

for years i was a slave to robitussin DM/nitrous oxide freakouts.  it's a ridiculous high school buzz, but i chased it for many years.  it's very seductive.  at some point you actually feel the mechanism in your brain that tells you right from wrong switch off and you become almost reptilian in your desires and behavior.

[Mister Chaddy]

here's  more

[matthew]

you need to be the keynote speaker of one of those "scared straight" seminars, matt.

Why not. I've got plenty of misery to share.

Not enough to scare Crappity straight.

(picturing this...hahahahahahahahahahaha etc.)

[matthew]

I talk too much about how much I enjoy this stuff as well to do any good.

[Doctor Rock]

you need to be the keynote speaker of one of those "scared straight" seminars, matt.

I was thinking the exact same thing...

[Judd W]

StraightEdge Rules! eXe YES! All this drug use...you know what that is...it is gay.  That is right, you big bunch of homosexuals.  

I have the word PURE tatooed on over my heart.  

But really.  I think that my old compadre Chad has it right about the drugs.  Just be educated.  Drugs can really be fun if you use them without going overboard.  

Not being able to handle your alcohol is pretty middle class, don't you think?  "We have to have an intervention - Jimmy is just drinking too much.  He had three Bahama Mammas at Bahama Breeze last night and couldn't even stand up straight when we went to the Barnes and Noble afterwords!  What are we going to do!?"  I have an idea, why don't you call Oprah (you know, your only colored friend) and see if she can hook you up with Dr. Phil so you can talk all about your gay, suburban drinking drama, you dumb fucking bitches!!!!

Just be a man and handle your liquor or move to Cordova (or your suburban equivilant), shop at the mall and go to church with the rest of the dreck that has taken over this shitty country.  FIFTY YEARS AGO THERE WAS NO SUCH THING AS ALCOHOLISM!  YOU HAD A DRINK AND JUST FUCKING DEALT WITH IT.

I really miss the good old days.

[Sabamah]

judd w is one of my favorite members of this board. he really knows how to take his "real world"(tm) experiences and apply them to my life, you know?

[Doctor Rock]

Wow, was that Judd being ironic?  Or was he drunk?  

[Moetown]

at some point you actually feel the mechanism in your brain that tells you right from wrong switch off and you become almost reptilian in your desires and behavior.

yummy

[Moetown]

and you become almost reptilian in your desires and behavior.

Come to think of it, I did want to lay on my stomach under a rock and eat insect larvae.

[matthew]

StraightEdge Rules! eXe YES! All this drug use...you know what that is...it is gay.  That is right, you big bunch of homosexuals.  

I have the word PURE tatooed on over my heart.  

But really.  I think that my old compadre Chad has it right about the drugs.  Just be educated.  Drugs can really be fun if you use them without going overboard.  

Not being able to handle your alcohol is pretty middle class, don't you think?  "We have to have an intervention - Jimmy is just drinking too much.  He had three Bahama Mammas at Bahama Breeze last night and couldn't even stand up straight when we went to the Barnes and Noble afterwords!  What are we going to do!?"  I have an idea, why don't you call Oprah (you know, your only colored friend) and see if she can hook you up with Dr. Phil so you can talk all about your gay, suburban drinking drama, you dumb fucking bitches!!!!

Just be a man and handle your liquor or move to Cordova (or your suburban equivilant), shop at the mall and go to church with the rest of the dreck that has taken over this shitty country.  FIFTY YEARS AGO THERE WAS NO SUCH THING AS ALCOHOLISM!  YOU HAD A DRINK AND JUST FUCKING DEALT WITH IT.

I really miss the good old days.

That made me laugh.